News

Well James and I applied for our marriage license yesterday.....it's hard to believe that I am getting married this Monday! I will actually be married before my birthday at the end of the month! Being the brat that I am after hearing a commercial for some company reminding us that Mother's Day is in a couple of weeks and you should shop now for your mother, grandmother, and wife I asked him will I be getting something for Mother's Day. He very nicely said he didn't see why not and I just started laughing because unlike many people I do not really need a gift for every holiday-cards work just fine and the little things he does and says to remind me how much I am loved mean the world to me.Neither of us have mentioned to our blood families that we are getting married as we know that is not going to go over well but the family that we have created here with our friends will be there to celebrate with us. We're hoping that we can get to FaerieCon in Philadelphia in October for a honeymoon type celebration as we cannot take one right now.

Me

Yes I know it has been a while since I posted-I'm still alive and doing ok. The car definitely needs to be replaced in about a month and Goddess willing James and I plan on getting married on May 4th. I have to get myself motivated and find something I can do for work from home since starting next week I will need to babysit my gf's kids for a couple of hours every morning so she can go to work.Once the car is replaced James needs to find a new site to work at or even possibly a new company as this 7 days a week is really getting to him even though we do get to spend more time together. We need at least one day together where there is nothing else going on before we both go crazy.

Alive

I am alive and I suppose well enough-the depression is slowly abating-I just need to find some ambition to look for work although I am slowly finding the ambition to get things done around the house which is an improvement in itself. James and I are talking about marriage but now at least getting rings may have to be put on hold because we need to replace the car and soon-it is only 1 of many things that need to be replaced-the bed, the tv, eventually at least one of the computers....we will manage but I wish we could start off with less problems and more joy.