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So James and I have been married since Monday-that should make me happy right? Wrong...at least with some things........the wedding even though it got to be far less simple than I wanted or hoped for was beautiful. I looked beautiful and pictures will be forthcoming. I am ecstatically happy being his wife which of course would make one wonder why I am feeling blah and not happy. The answer to that is of course my family.....James is so thrilled he posted a few wedding pictures on facebook-leading to the problem I am now dealing with. People began to leave congratulations on my wall which of course then led to the dreaded questions from various family members. My sister in Canada is very happy for us and is willing to support us in our future-my niece down in Florida congratulated me and through her my brother and the rest of the family down there-so far so good-right? Wrong again. My mother has now decided to join facebook and friend requested me-now I could have not accepted it and then dealt with that issue or accept the request and deal with her seeing I was now married. I figured I might just as well get it over with and accepted her-which of course led to her acting all offended because I was married and I didn't tell them. I called and tried to explain we went for something simple now-the wedding we want will be later and we did not tell anyone in our families before the wedding that it was taking place. She then got on her high horse and in her nasty tone just tried to make me feel guilty that I was a horrible child to not let them know-after all we must have told people if it is all over the internet.....so hear I sit trying hard not to cry from getting the reaction I expected.

News

Well James and I applied for our marriage license yesterday.....it's hard to believe that I am getting married this Monday! I will actually be married before my birthday at the end of the month! Being the brat that I am after hearing a commercial for some company reminding us that Mother's Day is in a couple of weeks and you should shop now for your mother, grandmother, and wife I asked him will I be getting something for Mother's Day. He very nicely said he didn't see why not and I just started laughing because unlike many people I do not really need a gift for every holiday-cards work just fine and the little things he does and says to remind me how much I am loved mean the world to me.Neither of us have mentioned to our blood families that we are getting married as we know that is not going to go over well but the family that we have created here with our friends will be there to celebrate with us. We're hoping that we can get to FaerieCon in Philadelphia in October for a honeymoon type celebration as we cannot take one right now.

Me

Yes I know it has been a while since I posted-I'm still alive and doing ok. The car definitely needs to be replaced in about a month and Goddess willing James and I plan on getting married on May 4th. I have to get myself motivated and find something I can do for work from home since starting next week I will need to babysit my gf's kids for a couple of hours every morning so she can go to work.Once the car is replaced James needs to find a new site to work at or even possibly a new company as this 7 days a week is really getting to him even though we do get to spend more time together. We need at least one day together where there is nothing else going on before we both go crazy.

Alive

I am alive and I suppose well enough-the depression is slowly abating-I just need to find some ambition to look for work although I am slowly finding the ambition to get things done around the house which is an improvement in itself. James and I are talking about marriage but now at least getting rings may have to be put on hold because we need to replace the car and soon-it is only 1 of many things that need to be replaced-the bed, the tv, eventually at least one of the computers....we will manage but I wish we could start off with less problems and more joy.

Lately

I have been very depressed and feeling blah. I'm hoping that the return of spring and more sunlight will help me snap out of it as it is really getting to James as well. Perhaps my family learning of our relationship will also help relieve some of the tension. I really need to start looking for something to do as a job as I think the idleness is also adding to it. I find it's an effort to get up, shower and get dressed.

Hi...

I'm still alive-it's been a very long week or so since I last posted. Kristen went home Tuesday-not sure if the way they are suggesting she treat the pancreatitis this time will work but it is not up to me to say. My sister if not my family now knows James is my bf and the same sister knows how old he is-how things will fall from that being said remains to be seen-but it will be their loss if they choose not to accept him. It's been a very long week-this upcoming week will be just as long and the weekend was exhausting. Time for the kitten to be in bed.

Today

I get to go back to the hospital-Kristen is still there and they still are not sure what is wrong with her. On the other hand my sister asked me yesterday if James was my boyfriend so the word is out-not sure how things will fly with the rest of my family but so far Meg is not judging me-I can only hope that everyone else decides it is MY life and I should get to be happy and not live to please them.

Updates

Ok-I'm here and I am lost.....I have no idea how to let people follow me or to even find people I know on here. Never mind looking to customise my blog. I haven't posted since I came back here because I was babysitting and spending time at the hospital visiting my niece Kristen who is back in with STILL no real idea what is wrong. They are going to have to do something more than what they have been doing at this point because how can you treat what you do not know? Where is Dr House when you need him? Anyway feel free to give me pointers on how to actual use this thing especially if you want me to easily find your own blogs to read or how to make it easier for you to read this.....

here

ok-I'm here and will try to be better at updating this

General Stuff

As you can tell I am horrible at remembering to come here and update.....but writing is something I have always struggled to do-especially when there is not much to write about in my life. I pretty much spend all my time working-which is what I should be doing now but I'm taking a little time for me for a change. I've been doing Jenny Craig since the end of May now and have lost 35 pounds so far. I have about 120 more to go to get to my original goal-for the most part I am finding it rather easy to stick to it. Once I get a more recent picture I'll let others see. I've coloured my hair so it's a bit darker than I'm used to-but that's the only way to cover the gray I'm beginning to find and I'm just not ready for that. It was enough of a shock to see that Madonna and the Beastie Boys were nominated for the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame......now that may not seem like that big a deal to many people-but these were artists that I listened to growing up that were considered rebellious.....and you cannot be nominated for the Hall of Fame until you've had a career of at least 25 years.....I want to know when I suddenly became old.....I still intend to fight it but age won a battle yesterday and its victory is still lingering. That's about it-I really should get some work done so I can leave.